A Lament for My Baby
I never got to hear you laugh
you never saw me cry
didnt get a chance to say "Hello"
you never said "Goodbye"
I didn't think that I could feel
so sad, lost and forlorn.
I never knew God chose his Angels
before some of them were born.
Your life was short yet special
I shared it all exclusively
I felt you breathe, I felt you kick.
You were alive inside of me.
Every baby is an Angel
and every angel is divine
God needed one in heaven
He came down and took mine
And although we are not together
we're not really apart
for you'll always occupy a space
deep within my heart.
Time has begun to ease my pain
It's only some days now I cry.
When I wish I could have said "Hello"
and heard you say "Goodbye"
We planned and waited so long for you.
Then, after all the times of tests and temperatures,
At last you began to live in me.
I listened to your speedy little heart and
Imagined who you would be.
As I snuggled up against your Daddy
You kicked him "hello" that first time.
Every decision was made with such great care;
What colour to paint, a quilt to sew,
A rocker for late night feedings,
Even a gown for your christening.
You waited patiently an extra week
So every detail could be completed.
Six years of anticipation for you.
We headed for the hospital, hurting,
But happy that the time had come.
We'd finally meet our little girl.
We did everything right, breathing,
Relaxing, pushing, panting.
How were we to know that when last we snuggled,
Your kick to Dad had meant "good-bye".
- Peggy Swanton
Before we said our first hello,
the time had already passed.
For when you held us in your arms,
We had gone to heaven to rest.
We felt angelic tears down our cheeks,
and watched you as you wept.
We wish we could have changed it all,
Your tears touched our souls so deep.
But Mummy when you are sad,
please be assured we know.
For death cannot take away your love,
it will only continue to grow.
Time and distance cannot erase,
a love and bond so deep.
There is no bond that can compare,
and in your heart we'll keep.
When you are feeling far away,
and missing us so much,
close your eyes and feel our wings,
there soft and gentle touch.
Or at night as you sleep,
we'll join you in a dream.
You will see us standing close to you,
and we'll be lost within our wings.
So dear Mummy ,
as you go from day to day.
Find comfort in the knowledge,
We are never that far away.